Awkward Instinct... when it all began...

Everything began, before it even really began. As a child I was amazingly infatuated with conception, pregnancy stages and growth, and the advancing Assisted Reproductive Technology (ART). My dream was to become a doctor and deliver babies. I wasn't sure exactly which route to take, but I knew babies were involved someway, somehow. It almost felt like an obsession, but thought maybe I absolutely just loved this field. I started to feel strong emotions towards infertility, and just hoped that I'd never have to experience such heartbreak. But as a child I truly felt I would have trouble conceiving. Sadly, that feeling was correct. I have just faced a monster I so feared to ever have to meet. A monster with no care at all to one's age, feelings, and desires. I came to realize one year ago (2010) that I needed fertility treatment, and this is when my journey began...